ok listen this wasn't my original post but then I saw a tiktok and I cried and I got all in my feels so here we are
THE SONG IS "NEVER GROW UP" BY TAYLOR SWIFT I WILL BE ADDING THE SONG LYRICS TO THE PARTS OF THIS BECAUSE U DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH IT HURTS
so I don't actually have any siblings, but I have two cousins I care about a lot. The elder is a girl who turned 7 two weeks ago, and the younger boy is 3, about to turn 4.
I was 8 when she was born, I loved playing with her because she was so adorable! She laughed when I played peekaboo with her and always cooked me pretend food in her little toy kitchen set.
"To you, everything's funny"
Then about 3 years later, her little brother was born. And I've heard from so many friends that their younger siblings are annoying, and even though she told me she was excited, I was worried she would grow to dislike him.
"Remember the footsteps, remember the words said. And all your little brother's favorite songs"
But that wasn't the case, she's a great big sister, insanely mature and patient for her age. So many times I've seen him try to take her toys or just laugh and annoy her, things that would've driven me crazy. But most of the time she would just give him the toy or calmly tell him to stop. And it warms my heart because children are just so pure.
Kids start off as a blank page, so to say. They don't know about the dark parts of life, all they care about are TV shows and their stuffed animals. And watching my cousins be so innocent just makes me want to cry.
I want them to grow up staying this clueless about the horrible things in the world.
"You got nothing to regret. I'd give all I have, honey, if you could stay like that"
I made them promise to tell me if they're upset because I want them to know they'll always have someone to talk to. I don't want them to develop negative coping habits like I have.
"I won't let nobody hurt you, won't let no one break your heart. And no one will desert you."
The girl has so many tutors and supplementary classes because my aunt and uncle are scared she'll fall behind in school. She's 7! I don't get why we think it's okay for kids that age to have academic pressure. When she got full marks on a speaking test this year (she started worrying abt exams at 6 wtf) I bought her a toy because she deserves it, and I want her to know I'm proud of her.
So the song breaks me every time I listen to it. It captured perfectly how I love them so much and want to shield them from the world, and also the way I wish I could go back to being a little kid with no worries.
"Oh, I don't wanna grow up. Wish I'd never grown up, it could still be simple."
Now I'm thinking about how 3 years later I might be going off to college and I won't get to see them as much.
And I'm scared of when they get older and become teenagers, I'm scared they'll fall in with the wrong crowd and start thinking I'm annoying. what am i supposed to do then?
"Oh, darling don't you ever grow up. Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little."
I honestly don't know what's going to happen in the future, but I guess there's not much point worrying about it now. The best I can do now is to just spend more time with them while I still can. I have faith that they'll keep our promise, and I promise them and myself that I'll do everything in my power to make their teenage years better than mine.
If you have kids, younger siblings, or cousins, just be there for them. Tell them that you love them and make sure they know they can come to you for anything. Cherish the time you have with the little ones now, cause when they grow up you'll think back to when they were babies and sob while listening to this song.
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